Blackout!

AHH!! Woke up because of the thunder and went down to make tuna sandwich. THEN it happened! BAMM!! No light no anything, was really scared so let the dog in to ease my anxiety. Had to throw away my tuna sandwich because I thought ew, it’d yuck if I can’t use the toaster. Of course, Happy ate it secretly when I let her in. There was 30 seconds where I don’t know where she is! Then the tuna was no where to be found and Happy smells like fish. So.. There we go.

Then Dad called and told me how to switch it back! Yet it blacked out again. Blah!!

Naruto’s funniest episode

I think it is?

So we were at The Gardens talking about crows, then I said there’s a crow that says ahoe ahoe. Yet they didn’t really get it I suppose.

FEELINGS?! TALKING TO ME ABOUT FEELINGS?

It’s been a great day. Started off bad because I was dreaming about my dog strapped in the middle of black dirt. Then my mom’s head chopped off and stitched back in. My grandmother was in a wheelchair. What a bad dream. I found out about my mom’s stitched head using “blog search”. Like, no one told me before about it and I had to discover it on my own using freaking blog search. Woke up in tears and slept again. All because of a trip to the hospital? I can’t be a doctor I suppose. Oh naive bel, it’s not because of this that you can’t be a doctor, it’s the fact that your brain is so tiny you won’t be able to handle the courses and hours spent on researching and learning… SHUT UP! So after that, everything seemed happy and all. Normally I’d feel superb when I think Wil/Yang smses, because they usually bring good news, like outings and such then today it brought in bad news so I was really let down, though, no harm done.

Usually after all that has happened, anyone would feel great to meet his/her friends again. So I felt really good during the whole thing.
Then have fun virtually again, even though friend’s rants were in the way, I enjoyed listening to what he’s going through, I mean, not that I’m happy for him. He’s going through all this pain but I can’t seem to understand why would he be so consistent. If it’s making you go through all this pain, why would you want to give in? Which is the same with career choices, that’s why you’re such a loser bel because you’d never understand it. People have passion for something and they’ll go through anything to at least want to stand a chance to achieve it. Yet it’s a relationship problem. Getting broken, old love back is super hard. You’ve broken up once already due to certain reasons, as if those reasons won’t pop up when you’re back together again. You might say my love for her will deny it all but can you really stand it all? Anyway, better not get my nose into other people’s business, which I’ve already did. Blah. So, then again getting old love back is like getting fired and wanting the job back right. Some would think there’s still a lot of jobs in the world, some would stay and fight for the job. What should someone do? Your boss doesn’t want you anymore, they’re hiring another person, should you move along and get another job? Or weep and ache over lost job? Then again what can you do, you can’t force it to come back. Ugh, my tiny brain is hurting.

Even if you get pissed off after having fun with friends, you’d say hey everyday there’ll be someone who pisses me off, no matter the reason/how, why should one person or more tick me off? Isn’t that their intention exactly? People might say things without using a tiny speckle of their brain or just pure jealousy, that doesn’t mean you should be affected by it. Let’s not return the favour by backfiring/writing a comeback because that’s exactly what they want, attention. Maybe they’re just telling the truth? Is that what they want us to think? Maybe, he’s telling the truth and I’m taking it badly because it offends me? Yet all of this comes from misunderstanding sometimes, conflicts come from misunderstanding. I might scold you and be upset with you even if there’s something behind all of this and I didn’t know. Ignorance?

I need my Purpose Driven! Yet I don’t think it can help me. Nah, it’ll help. I’ll get it later.

Talking to Lyn was hard because she didn’t read the blog entries and won’t really respond like she used to when she got to read, when you know what happened you can talk to someone better. And I found out that I was rather geeky (woo, big discovery there). I was talking to her about FlashGet and isohunt. “So you download FlashGet then go to isohunt and tada! You’re done” “I don’t understand a word you just said.” MAYBE YOU DIDN’T LISTEN! XDD Who’d understand though, without using it and such. She might drop by tomorrow if and I quote, “she feels like it or can” That’s like PMS talk. “I’ll do it if I really feel like it, or if I can get over the cramp and do it.” WAKKAAKKA.

Another thing is, I go into auto pilot when I’m holding the camera shooting a video. Everytime I edit those videos, there’s 100% chance of me not listening to what another person is saying. I might listen but the heart isn’t there. I’d always say, “I don’t remember saying that?” and “What the, how could you have said that bel?” Or “LOL! That was funny! Why weren’t I amused?” Gotta learn to be there and shoot at the same time. (No one’s asking you to shoot all those videos, most of them are people avoiding anyways, why try?) It’s called preserving memories! What if I get old or something? I’d want something to remember you people.

Okay I just got disconnected from Internet, explaining all this time to think about how I’m FEELING. Computer just occupies your mind and gets your mind off reality. :S What I’m about to say is, as a direct and indirect victim of disconnection, Wil told me last time he didn’t like when he disconnects and comes back knowing everyone’s gone. What he didn’t say is probably when a friend disconnects, you’d feel very lost and suddenly something’s lost or just upset because HEY! HE DIDN’T EVEN SAY GOODBYE! WHAT A CUNT!, so you try to search for him/her by waiting, or going offline instead because you think perhaps he/she’s gone and won’t be back already. Disconnection just makes both side feel bad. The person disconnected will be worried, the other party would be pissed, or understanding if the person disconnected is a constant customer of disconnection. BLAH. So much talk. I should stop. < Rhymes. XD

So CL was talking about his contact groups. I said mine would only be of “people who talk to me” and don’t. I think. I did have a groups once, then I got lazy and didn’t want to sort them out, most of them I don’t really know. So, people I don’t talk to and people I do talk to. People I do talk to, only 2. Am I a lonely person? SO WHAT. I can’t talk to more than 1 person at a time. I’ll sound distant. Yet you know, sometimes personality and such drives people away so after chatting for a long time you just stopped. Or just choosing not to communicate. It’s super awkward online because misunderstanding happens easily. Those misunderstanding builds up and tada, your online friend is no more.

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