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To you. Readers. Friends. Enemies. Poopie. Uriney. Shhshhi. Pets. 3 musketeers. Upset ice mage. Horny Bandit. Guava. Peelfresh Blackcurrant with Aloe Vera bits. A downgraded orange called lemon. Outstation girl who might forget to bring me a souvenir. Boy who misses outstation girl who might forget to bring me a souvenir. Handsome. Pretty. Lost sheep.

The Purpose Driven. Chapter Day 18! SO AWESOME. Not so Christian like version for non-Christians.

People wear masks, keep their guard up and act as if everything is rosy in their lives. These attitudes are the death of real fellowship. It is only as we become open about our lives hat we experience real fellowship. (SO BLOG ABOUT YOUR LIFE EVEN IF IT’S NOT SO PRETTY NOW. Like what I do. My life isn’t good but I still talk about it. I suppose.)

Of course, being authentic (real) requires both courage and humility.IT MEANS FACING OUR FEAR of EXPOSURE!! REJECTION! and BEING HURT AGAIN!

VAI would anyone take such a risk? Because it is the only way to grow spiritually and be emotionally healthy.

VE only grow by taking risks, and the most difficult risk of all is to be honest with ourselves and with others wei!

SYMPATHY is not giving advice or offering quick, cosmetic help; sympathy is entering in and sharing the pain of others!!! Sympathy says, “I understand what you’re going through, and what you feel is neither strange nor crazy.” (To my friends, I’m saying that to you!)

DE PROBLEM IS. We are often in such a hurry to fix things that we don’t have time to sympathize with people. (This is what I was blabbering about, the “My dog died. ” “Go get a new one la. zz” Or we’re preoccupied with our own hurts. Self- pity dries up sympathy for others!

God Someone warns, “Never hold grudges(the feeling of displeasure, I killed your pet and you have a grudge on me)” because bitterness and resentment always destroy fellowship. Because we’re imperfect, sinful people, we inevitably hurt each other when we’re together for a long enough time. Sometimes we hurt each other intentionally and sometimes unintentionally, but either way, it takes a massive amounts of mercy and grace to create and maintain fellowship.

FORGIVENESS must be immediate, whether or not a person asks for it. Trust must be rebuilt over time. Trust requires a track record. If someone hurts you repeatedly, you’re commanded by God, your God to forgive them instantly, but you are not expected to trust them immediately, and you’re not expected to continue allowing them to hurt you. They must prove they’ve changed over time.

Forgiveness is letting go of the past.

Trust has to do with future behavior.

Put simply, if someone hurts you a lot of times, then read the above.

Let me say.. SHUT UP EVERY TIME YOU READ A CHAPTER YOU GET ALL WEEE AND WOO ABOUT IT. STOP!!! XDSorry. Got too bored and wrote the below.

Do you, Christabel Lim promise to read The Purpose Driven written by Rick Warren everyday, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness or in health, to love and to cherish ’till death do us part?

me : I do!

And do you TPD promise to do ain’t no thang but a chicken wing?

TPD : I do? Why am I even involved. I’m a book for Pete’s sake!

Yada yada, I now pronounce you owner and b..

Laptop and FFX Official Strategy Guide : WE OBJECT!

Me : What? Cmon guy I read you everyday! Don’t do this to me.

L and FFX OSG : That’s why! Why does he get to have all this ceremony and vows while we sit there and watch? It’s just not fair.

Me : Fine..

Do you, Christabel Lim promise to read TPD everyday for a bit more portion than surfing the laptop and reading the FFX OSG, provided that you nurture and treat the TPD, laptop and FFX OSG equally?

 

So big scary monster who’s decided he’d come to Coffee Bean, what would you like for today?

Ifrit : Mocha.

 

AHAHAAHA. Ahem! Looks like I was pooped ya?

So I went to storages to look for some things. Then I got disturbed by this! What firecrackers thing. Good thing these aren’t real. But it’s very well intended simulation to make maplers happy. I suppose. AROUSED DRAGON!

 

Okay, serious business whining.

Maple is a good businessman, we call him Maple because I don’t know who to refer to. I mean, they see what kids/players want and they give it to them. So when they give it to them, it wreaks havoc! It’s normal because we all want a taste of new things. Which is when relationships are tested, if you’re compatible, let’s say in your 120s or more, then congratulations, your training is now easier. Then again it might be bad because you’d be so stressed out and GAHH!!! because you’ll be training and wanting more, thus, affecting your relationship? Perhaps. If you’re under 120s, woots, you world might crumble. Listening to 120s talk all day isn’t good. You’ll feel extremely left out and you want to train and will stop at nothing, because of nothing! You’re an angry train! RARH!!

Ahem.

I’m overreacting over 4th job. I wonder what my views are on 4th job, I’m envious I must say but it’s maple. I vowed to not get my feelings involved because it’s a new year soon and we won’t want history to repeat. Ugh.

So, I was going to say. I’m not saying what you’re feeling and wanting is wrong. It’s good to have a goal and reach it but don’t ditch me la. You’re the one not wanting to be involved, aren’t you the one ditching?

 

Hmm. What did I do today?

Woke up and went to .. I don’t exactly remember. Ahh..

There was checkers, delicious 2 meals, maple, trouble, bubble. MAPLE IS TROUBLE. It rhymes ya?

Now I end my 900 word blog post with appreciation and thank yous to those who’ve make my day a better day than yesterday.

 

YA RIGHT.

Do respond by typing “Thanks for the quotes you got from the book.”

T_T

 

Hungry..

…

Slept whole day! Today I don’t have anything to complain about.

What to complain about?

Hmm. Hi Kenji and Xiao Wei! Thanks for dropping by, if you are anyway Xiao Wei ah, ni ke zhi dao wo duo ai ni~ Wo yao dai ni qu kan gorilla.

Yang showed us his wish list. Then I thought, so you can’t spend money on outings but you can spend it on the game. :S

NOT SAYING ANYTHING. Go buy go buy.

December’s coming!!! I can’t believe it. Sri KL. This is too much.

And.. My goodness. XW scrolled a not so good Codar. So he’s lending it, GOOD RIGHT. Don’t get shocked when wil, you see you’re holding a Codar. And… don’t get shocked when you see you have 2% less. T_T SORRY. Died, spent A LOT of time regaining it, so don’t get mad. I did get 2 eq. What a cunt right? Kills someone and tries to talk your way out of it.

So, I once read somewhere that we should have a journal written for what we’ve learned, not what we did or daily routines. It might be fun perhaps because talking about what you did today is rather mundane but it’s easy because you just need to retrace what you did. What’s difficult is remembering everything, which is the same with what I’ve said was easy but remembering isn’t that easy I suppose. You might forget certain things or didn’t realize somethings then bam, someone’s feelings might get hurt.

Okayyy.. I was trying to regain the % I lost then was shocked by the amount of people grinding/still online at 4 / 5 am. Back when I played, yeah there were a lot online that period too. Maybe it’s because I don’t play that much thus, a surprise. Kenji was there, shocker eh? Same as always, happy and stupid. Glad they were there when I take care of my guilt. XW was upset as usual. You would have thought after 2 months it’d be okay. 2 months? I went to search for the history and guess what, I mentioned the break up on October 14th. So don’t worry it hasn’t been that long, your recovery will come. Somewhere over the rainbow~ Is the golden pot of happiness. No one really talk these days. Everyone’s busy doing something. I’m glad wil yang still ask me to go Maple whenever they go. Means a lot

Do I treat blog like a leave a message to your friends? Yes I do. Why do I do that? What if others aren’t mentioned? Like Lyn who’s on trip. WELL. What do you want me to tell her. Hey I feel you feeling me feeling you from Msia. Have fun. Lik Sin misses you very much, so do everyone else here. Sin’s blog is super empty, super because it’s not like him to not blog. But anyway. Do effing blog, to everyone out there. Blah. Why do we ask people to blog? BECAUSE WE WANNA KNOW HOW YOU ARE! Or how pathetic your life is, and I’ll compare yours with mine, savvy? It’s mostly wanting to hear from you.

One day you’ve got all the things in the world you wanna talk about, then the other day you get hungry and only thinks about food. Not. Enough. Oxygen. Flowing. To. Tiny. Brain. *dies*

I’m a bit nuts lately.

Confused and lacking confidence actually.

OH.

.imagine if a guy you love..he with other girl..will you not emo.. ?

*Imagines*

YAH. I’d get all sad and feel like destroying something. GRAGAFGAFD

Yet there’s this barrier, “if he doesn’t love me, then I’ll just kill the the.. feeling lurking inside me when I think about them.”

Human’s deepest fear is losing something.

It is right? BB Imaginary boy friend